reflection

These few weeks,
make me think and reflect a lot about my vision and my mindset.
many things have happened from now,
events that make me be more firmed in Him,
but events that also make me ponder further about my doubts.

Pray, as easy as it is written, is as hard as one can commit.
Hah. Lazy to state it down.

(:

I don't know if I should say this here but,





I'm really really attracted by you, your personality, your traits, your positive, your negatives,
everything!




If this is God's will, lead me to her (:







As each day I pray, I feel I am closer to You God.

Prayer for ABC

I don't understand, why does ABC(fake name to protect the victim) hate me so much?
Why when the truth is told, but ABC still doesn't let go?
Why is ABC treating me like this?
I don't understand.
Perhaps there are things that ABC is unhappy about, but don't we all make mistakes?
If this grudge is something ABC want to hold on, I can't do anything about it but pray.

"O Lord please soften ABC's heart and ABC's mind, and if there's an opportunity, let us talk."

In Jesus name I pray, Amen.

now that I've at least 6 months left til I go army(plus I'm still studying now for my final 2 core modules),
there's certain things I wanna do while I can(like on my wish-list):

1) polish my music skills (like guitar, drums, compositions)

2) help out in crusade(and prob CF) as much as possibles *

3) work? I'm not sure though. Probably looking for ministry-based work first. But I don't mind some quick cash, then I can buy my wants. Oh wait. "needs" haha

4) go Genting Highland. it's been like near 5 years? or more? not sure. looking for friends to go to =) actually it's been my wish to go to Genting with my friends since I was young. Like really just us. But I was too small back then. I guess it's time to fulfill it! =D interested anyone?

5) disciplined myself to read more bible and consistent QT **

6) be a better man HAHA nah I'm serious, to be a better christian.


For * and **, I would like to elaborate more. I think the Taiwan mission trip has really impacted my life. Like I really think alot now and align my heart with God's heart. Although I still struggle sometimes(temptations, sins), it's never too late to set straight. It's hard but never too hard to comeback =)

After witnessing how committed and how passionate the students in Taiwan are for God, I think I was slapped awake and really put my head into thoughts, how much have I done? How christian have I been?

I want to bring that passions back to Ngee Ann, I want to tell them that there's a God who loves them forever! and those who truly follow Jesus, step up! Be the salt and light! You don't have to say anything. Just live it out!

And God really rejuvenate my heart, my soul, my faith for Him. I don't want to cripple again. I don't want to wither. I want to continue to stay focus and stay firm! YES!

thank you

I want to love God so much,
that I want to quit my sins,
just like quitting cigars.

I can do it,
just as God is like an anti-addict to me.

If it not for Him,
I wouldn't be where I am now.

thanks Abba Father =)

no more

Seriously,


I had enough of this engineering shit.


no more biomedical equipment,

no more tissue engineering stuff,

no more computer programming(SCREW WITH IT),

no more soldering, no more PCB design,

no more calculations, no more boring stuffs,

NO MORE BIOMEDICAL ENGINEERING!

I AM NEVER COMING BACK FOR THIS AGAIN, I DUN CARE IF I GET A DIPLOMA ON THIS OR NOT, COS I AM GOING TO THROW THIS CERT INTO THE RUBBISH BIN! U MARK MY WORDS, !@#$%$#@#$



pls, I want do something else. pls

the chapters of studies 1

the cross....

Today my dad and I had arguments over my studies. At first I was very defensive, but God put down my iron heart and let me see that I am wrong all these while..
I really felt, I let down the people around me, esp the love ones. I felt I neglected too much on my studies, although I keep saying don't like don't like, but have I ever really faced this correctly? My results are horrible but my characters are worse. What's been poisoning me is my own selfish desire, laziness, excuses etc. I've never been able to face it upright.
I really wanna do well, but I really dunno alot of things. Excuses are piling higher than my expectations...........




As I stumble, I looked up at this wonderous cross...
And I start to ponder about my attitude seriously.......